I realized recently that I was delving more into topics that affected me personally, and I wanted to get back to the basics. I want to talk just about mental health and how much it can affect others and yourself without you ever noticing.
When I first started this blog, I honestly didn’t expect anyone to really say anything. I thought I’d get a small reaction just because I was doing my own thing and people would notice. I knew people would talk because they had no idea I ever had these problems within my life as I was decently good at hiding the bad feelings. But then, once I posted a few times, something strange started happening. People that I talk to often and also people I don’t talk to near as much started commenting on it when they saw me or they sent me private messages. Random people were reading my blog, and not only that–they actually related to it! Since then, my views have gone down a decent amount, but I don’t mind as I just want to help whoever finds my blog.
I just wanted to restate something about mental illness: it’s hard to deal with alone. We always think that we can’t talk about it or show anyone because it would be a sign of weakness, but it’s not. Heck, sometimes mental illness is literally just your brain’s chemicals being messed up. I’m here to tell you that no matter the reason or the seemingly “missing” reasons for mental health issues, you’re still a beautiful human. If you need to take medication, or go to therapy, or cry it out, or just have a day when you do nothing–you’re still you.
In the past, I always believed doing any of these things just meant I was lazy or weak or pathetic. I hated trying to talk to people or even going to the doctor about my anxiety or depression, but my doctor was the first person to change that. He could tell I was a little uncomfortable my first visit so he told me that a ton of people come into his office for the same thing and that it is very common. At first, I didn’t believe him. But once the comments on my blog came rolling in–that changed.
I had adults and teens messaging me telling me how brave I was for making a blog like this. They were telling me how much they had struggled before as well. Some people even told me about specific posts that they “just really needed to hear” that day. I had random people from my grade telling me they thought the blog was really cool. I had one person reach out to me and I had a deep talk with them about their mental health issues and who they could reach out to for professional support.
Now, I am no professional on the subject of psychology. Yes, I know more than most because of my nerdiness, but I’m not qualified in it. Keeping that in mind, I can still listen and give advice or even just keep people company if they need it. I don’t care who you are, how you know me or if you even know me, how old you are, if you’re married or single, if you just want to talk one time to me in your life, or whatever… I will listen, and I will do my best to make it better. You can spend forever thinking you’re overreacting or you can talk to someone or me to find out that it’s not just you. Or if you ever feel like you have no one there for you, let me be there for you. Because I will be.